I wish for something..
I'm not being dramatic,
I'm not being emotional,
Everyone wishes,
so why cant I?

I wish...
or should I not...

Hope always leads to disappointment,
no matter how hard you tried
even when you tried your best,
even when you archived something,
human may never be satisfied.
Well, that's what people says...

As a matter of fact,
nothing is perfect.
Some people wish for perfect-ness,
but they just don't realize,
have they ever thought about themselves?
Like i said,
nothing is perfect,
so why are you?

Every time when I wanted to speak,
every time when I tried to share,
It's not that easy..
Those words coming out from my mouth,
I have to think about them,
analyze them,
or even modify them,
before they come out..
I knew this is common.
But even though i tried,
i was always wrong...
and i don't know why.
You see,
I ain't perfect at all...

Yet,
I always wanted to share
or someone to talk to..
I once received comments that are beautiful,
but things are different
when all i received was anger or ignorance..
I like it when there was still such thing called pillow talk.
I like it when I'm lying on the bed,
spreading out everything in my mind.
But now,
I chose to stay silence..

It's not that i doesn't care anymore
but the fact is,
I'm just caring..
I hate to see anger
I hate to see coldness..
and i'm afraid of what may happen next,
I'm afraid of the future..
so what can I do?

Now,
I wish...
I wish...
but i shouldn't be..
cause i know,
wish doesn't come true...
and all i can do...
is try my best
until the very end...