I found my lifestyle is changing
but is it something good or bad?
I wonder..

I remember I used to have this confidence,
where even though I fell down several times,
I still know that I'm able to stand up again
But now,
I don't even dare to try falling down.
being TOO sensitive on every single rock around me,
preventing myself to fall...

I used to think that
no matter how hard the route is,
no matter what mistake I did,
I'll make it through that path
as long as I keep smiling..
But things aren't the same anymore.
For every tiny little mistake I did,
I'll regret it.
and feel disappointed to myself.
I stopped smiling since then..

But through all these changes,
I found myself being careful..
Sometimes,
I wanted to change..
I know it's not possible.
Deep in my heart,
I know I'm still THAT me..
but Yes! I wanna be perfect..
at least I wanted to try..
to be that perfect guy,
to be ahead from everyone..
to dream..

I'm not being EMO
I'm just being realistic.
No more fantasy,
No more fairy tales..
and what I only want is..
a smile..


A smile from you~ :)