October 8, 2011
I never thought I'll open back my blog to post anything,
not when I have not touch it for almost a half year..
Yet,
there's something that I wish to write about,
something that I couldn't really understand,
something that I'm afraid of...
I always heard that everyone has their problem in life.
There are no such flawless life that actually exist.
However, people knows what their problem is,
they just do not know how to fix it.
Well, for my case,
it's slightly different.
I do not know both.
For quite some time I've been hold on to nothing but myself.
It's not that I'm alone.
Its just..
sometimes,
I just can't figure out what was it that I should be feeling right now.
I know I feel guilty most of the time.
Was I really wrong?
Wait..What was it that I was wrong for?
I barely understand myself anymore..
I wish someone would be there,
to care for what that could be happen to me anytime,
care to know how do I feel,
or
care to know what consequences will happen to me.
I do not really know what the problem is right now,
but I'm afraid that I'll let go "myself" that I'm holding on.
I was told that I have many friends beside me,
my family,
my love one,
but why..
just why am I feeling..
lonely..
Can anyone tell me..
just what are these tears meant for..?
not when I have not touch it for almost a half year..
Yet,
there's something that I wish to write about,
something that I couldn't really understand,
something that I'm afraid of...
I always heard that everyone has their problem in life.
There are no such flawless life that actually exist.
However, people knows what their problem is,
they just do not know how to fix it.
Well, for my case,
it's slightly different.
I do not know both.
For quite some time I've been hold on to nothing but myself.
It's not that I'm alone.
Its just..
sometimes,
I just can't figure out what was it that I should be feeling right now.
I know I feel guilty most of the time.
Was I really wrong?
Wait..What was it that I was wrong for?
I barely understand myself anymore..
I wish someone would be there,
to care for what that could be happen to me anytime,
care to know how do I feel,
or
care to know what consequences will happen to me.
I do not really know what the problem is right now,
but I'm afraid that I'll let go "myself" that I'm holding on.
I was told that I have many friends beside me,
my family,
my love one,
but why..
just why am I feeling..
lonely..
Can anyone tell me..
just what are these tears meant for..?
11:18 AM